Jessica

When I was 13 till 16 they thought I was clinically depressed then when I was 16 till I was 22 they thought I had bipolar so I know what you are talking about... though in reality I have a multiple personality disorder instead all these years but it was masked and no therapists, doctors, etc could diagnose it until I found a very good psychiatrist who works with patients like me but that doesn't mean I know EXACTLY how you feel because I've had panic attacks so bad I've felt like I was going out of mind... Some were so bad that I felt like I was literally crawling out of my skin... My entire 95 pound mass would shake so hard for hours on end even and I couldn't stop it that I'd have to take an extra panic pill - I'd feel like inside I was going crazy and I couldn't control it. Luckily, I never had this happen while driving. I can't and don't have a license because of the disease along with a seizure disorder and the panic attacks. I can very much sympathize with you and anyone else. I spent my whole life basically thinking I was bipolar or at least depressed until I found out what was really wrong with me. I always had this deep horrifying pain and rage that never went away and I'd cry for no reason but there had to be one right? It was just one I never knew about... All the reasons were repressed and insides the minds of others - other personalities etc. So, instead I spent my life in and out, voluntarily, in therapy and in mental hospitals that never helped until I found the truth --- that was always inside me -- waiting to be released one day.